In Aub's Own Words

Always from the heart...

I would be the mouthful of a grandchild you just read about. I wouldn't consider myself fully healed because I believe it's not something you can simply "fix" and let go of, but something about those words coming out of my doctor's mouth, in writing and her explaining about autophagy which means my body was eating itself from the inside out, scared the shit out of me!

I was so delusional and disoriented that I told her I wanted to leave, and I didn't care. I didn't take it seriously, and sometimes forget to, still, because nobody my age ever got to that point, at least no one I knew of. My friends joked about gum and water for a meal and made silly jokes about not eating, but they were not where I was.

I saw people my age and height much lighter than me, but they were fine? Why wasn't I fine to be smaller? I mean, I was okay with me, but I didn't fit the stereotypical "pretty girl," and as soon as I changed myself, there were people who saw me as pretty again, and I stopped getting bullied, but was it worth it? I wouldn't say so..."

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